Pivot, shift, change, move – be flexible. Permanently. Or, at least until this crisis is over. Which, could be mid-May or June or July…
It’s frustrating not knowing when this crisis will ever end.
I’m writing this at the end of – hold on, I need to go look up what week we are on – week 3. How in the world does three weeks feel like forever ago?
I don’t know about you, but it certainly doesn’t feel like “its only been three weeks.” Especially when we have at least another 6 weeks to go…
Things have changed since my last blog post –
First, we are under a shelter-in-place order through the end of April. I literally do not leave my home unless its to go for a walk or a bike ride. On the one hand, our gas budget for the month is drastically reduced. On the other hand, I really miss my social groups.
Mostly, we’ve adapted the mindest of permanent flexibility. Constantly shifted, pivoting and changing to adapt to the ever-changing restrictions and the emotion of the day – or of the hour. I’m not going to lie, it’s so very hard. As a strong type A who loves a solid schedule and routine, this whole changing things up all the time business is really getting old, fast.
I’m sort of over it.
My kids are over it.
And yet… we still have a long, long, time to continue with this new normal.
And yet, I refuse to let this crisis take over and give in to a “stinking thinking” mindset. I refuse to let the negativity take over.
I will not allow this crisis to ruin all the mindset and “self-help” work that I have put in over the years to train my brain to be positive and calm.
So, some days, we make it hour by hour.
Sometimes we make it day by day.
I hate to say I’m wishing the days away because I’m learning to like the “unbusyness” of life before COVID19 – not rushing around, actually having time to cook dinner every night, spending extra time with the boys.
But, oh how I miss the routine and the schedule of it all. I miss my meetings and my social groups. I miss being able to just get in my car and go anywhere at any time. I miss being able to put my grocery order on the same day I want to pick them up.
And yet. I have learned that an attitude of gratitude is really the most calming presence I have during this time. Yes, I get frustrated that I constantly have to change and pivot and be flexible but I get to do that.
I have the ability to do that.
I get to decide what we do each day and if needed, change the plan.
I get to go on a bike ride with my boys if I want to.
I get to cook dinner for my family every night.
I get to adapt my business to serve my clients and those we need my help.
I get to do things around the house that maybe would have been put off until summer.
I get to help my kids with their schoolwork during #unexpectedhomeschool.
I get to think differently, I get to adopt a new mindset of permanent flexibility.
I believe that even in the midst of this crisis, we will all learn great things about ourselves. I have learned that I can learn to adapt to sudden change.
I have learned that even though my brain fights it, I can adapt a new mindset and I can indeed have permanent flexibility.